Looking for a new love

Laptop, that is. I'm currently looking at this one. It seems great for me, almost perfect. It's small, cute and it's good for the things I do on a computer. I'm not an advanced user, I normally just browse the web, write in documents and maybe sometimes even play The Sims 3 which would be the thing demanding most memory and power. Otherwise I don't really need the very best and most powerful computer so this one seems great.

What do you think?

Part two, assaulted eight year old girl

Click on the headline to read what the mother said about the attempted rape of her eight year old daughter. The two boys, aged ten and eleven, were convicted of attempt to rape but cleared of rape. Still, I can't understand how you, by that early age, know about stuff like these. I'd want to hear what the parents of the boys have to say about this. Do they really care about raising their kids? And if so, what kind of upbringing is this?

Mother's Day

Yep, it's Mother's Day. We, that's me and my brother, bought mum some flowers and a cute card with a bear on it, holding a bunch of roses. Well, we didn't buy roses, but the card was, as I said, cute and I couldn't resist buying it. Mum was happy to get the flowers, and we were happy that she liked them. Would've been awkward if she didn't.

We spent the day out on a soccer field in the pouring rain, and it felt like it was all in vain. Oh, now I'm starting to do rhymes, also. Great. Just great.
Anyhow, my brother's team lost against a bunch of boys that were one year older than them. Also it was just a one goal difference, so I think they did great.
Then when we finally got home, the rain stayed at where we just left and the sun was shining again. Good. Because it was good weather when we left this morning, I took on my favourite shorts. Guess if I did regret it...

It's time for bed soon and tomorrow it's Monday again. Just eight days away from the biggest and greatest break we have; summer break! Feels good knowing I'm leaving my first year in college with good grades. Well, good is an understatement. Fantastic grades. I can't help but feeling proud of myself. I mean... I even have good grades in math now. I was so close to failing before coming to college. And now... it's so unreal. But I'm not complaining!

Robotic society (people becoming like robots)

I thought of this today, that people more and more become like robots.
Doing the same routine all day long, all week, obeying the rules (if you don't then you're no robot. True story.) of... well, traffic is what I mostly thought of.

When loads of people just stand there in front of the red man, waiting for the green man to take his place and indicate that it's okay to walk.
When the green man arrives, the power turns on and people walk across the street.

Sitting on the bus; looking out the window, reading a book, a magazine, a newspaper.
Listening to music through your earphones from your brand new Android phone or iPod.
Getting off as soon as it's your station and when the bus doors open.

Doing all of these things automatically like robots do.
We more and more want to look like robots, too.
We inject huge amounts of botox, whiten our teeth, make our breasts bigger, make our bottoms smaller.
Anything to prevent aging and fattening. Just like robots. Because they don't age nor do they get bigger or smaller.

What happened to the spontaneous, non-fixated people?
Is everything really supposed to be perfect?

Claustrophobia in Old Town

Today we took a stroll in Old Town here in Stockholm. Well, okay - it wasn't really "taking a stroll", we oriented around the place. It's my hometown but I could easily get lost. Seriously.
And all of these alleys...! I mean, it's scary.

I mean, look. I get claustrophobic by just looking at the picture. Walking between these walls was... scary. Felt like they were going to close in on me and crush me. Not my favourite hobby, walking around in these places. And I can't even imagine what it would be like going home through these narrow places in the dark night. Ideal places for rapists... I guess.

They just get younger and younger...

... these poor children. Well, I feel sorry for this one, and also these two, in a way.

The first article is about a little boy who, at age 11, developed an eating disorder, leading to anorexia. Other children of his age used to bully him for his weight and the way he looked. Though he wasn't even near being fat. How far are you prepared to go just to hurt someone? Now when he's 12 he's finally out of hospital, healthy and free of his horrible diagnose.

The second article is about two boys, at the happening aged 10, who made an attempt for raping a girl who is two years younger and therefore 8 years old when she was assaulted. I mean, come on! Ten years old and they're already 'interested' in sex? What kind of parents have (not) raised these children?! It's a total madness, all of this. I feel sorry for the boy who was having anorexia, and for the girl who was almost raped, before they even became teenagers. Isn't that just disgusting?

Metallica!

As I promised, I'd do a list of my favourite Metallica songs. Didn't really think I'd be doing them now, but what the hell. Here we go!

1. Battery
2. King Nothing
3. Master Of Puppets
4. One
5. The Day That Never Comes
6. Nothing Else Matters
7. Seek And Destroy
8. Fade To Black
9. Blackened
10. Sad But True
11. Enter Sandman
12. For Whom The Bell Tolls
13. Harvester Of Sorrow

There we go. A lot of songs but they're all great. I'm not even sure they're in the right order, but it doesn't matter. Mostly I'm impressed by the intro of the songs. Numbers 1-9 on this list have awesome intros. No kidding. The other ones are... well, okay. What makes them good is the thing in between. Metallica... wow.

I never in my life would've believed a year back that I'd be listening to this metal band. But now I am, and I'm more than happy about that!

Radiohead addiction

I'm going to do something different; share all of my favourite songs from the fantastic band Radiohead. Since I have nothing else to do, I'm not tired and I'm free from school tomorrow, then I thought it would be a good idea.

Okay, so here's my list. Click on the names to hear the songs on YouTube!

1. Karma Police
2. Pyramid Song
3. Fog (Again)
4. High And Dry
5. Videotape
6. Creep (Acoustic)
7. Electioneering
8. Packt Like Sardines In A Crushd Tin Box
9. Airbag

Beautiful songs, all of them. Thanks to someone on YouTube who made fantastic covers on "Videotape" and "Pyramid Song", I learned to love this band. Love them 'til I die. It's like Metallica. And oh, by the way - I can post my favourite Metallica songs next time. Sounds good? Great. Talk to you then.

I'm back (I guess)

So it's been a while. I guess you already forgot about me, huh? Well I'm partly out of my life crisis. I mean, life's never fully perfect. It can't be. And if you feel that it is, it's probably the other way. Yeah. That's what I believe.
Today it's Sunday, the weather is depressing and it kind of fits with the name of the day and the fact that it's Monday tomorrow. No more freedom. School. But it'll be over in a few weeks. A little more than two weeks. God, it's that soon?! Time really flies, doesn't it?

I feel I'm not getting anything of importance out here. I just wanted to announce my return, that's all. So I guess I'll be updating soon. Better are the chances when I get my own computer up and running again. The fan is sounding like a hundred hairdryers and the laptop almost gets that hot as the hundred hairdryers might get. So we're trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with it. I miss my computer...

Taking a break

Yeah. I'm gonna be honest with you and if you haven't already noticed - I'm not feeling well.
Mentally, that is. And that's worse than feeling bad physically. So... yeah. I'm gonna deal with my inner demons and other problems and then come back to this blog. I hope. I like to write. No, I love to write. But right now it doesn't seem too good for me sitting here and writing out everything that I feel. So I'll keep that to myself.

Because all of the friends I used to talk to turned their backs on me. Thanks again. Fuckers.

It's amazing, how people can just stop caring about you.
I mean, I've tried everything. Calling, texting, writing on Facebook. Suggesting things. "Hi, it's been a while. I think we should meet up for a chat!" "Yeah... how about next week?" And then something else comes up. I wonder if that's just to avoid me. Because that seems to happen all the time nowadays.

Well, what to do. If people doesn't want to be with me - then fine! F*** you all, some of you I've known since I was four years old. And some of you since six years of age. But still that doesn't matter to these idiots. Nothing seems to matter. The worst thing is that people don't even have the curtesy of telling me the truth. Saying why they don't want to be with me, instead of making up excuses. "I can't, even though we had decided to see each other today. I... have a doctors appointment. Sort of." Screw that, I don't believe any of it.

So to all of you, that keep doing this to me. Stop. I know what you're doing. Go to hell instead. I'd be glad to see you going there. I'd wave you off, even.

The Simpsons: Latest Episode

God, I can never stop loving The Simpsons. It's been going on for 21 years soon and still it keeps the same good quality. In fact, it just keeps getting better. This latest episode really was a good one. So if you click on this headline it'll lead you to Watch The Simpsons Online, a site where you can watch all of the episodes available. There is a site for you Family Guy-lovers too (and I'm also a big fan of Family Guy), and it's called Watch Family Guy Online. Feel free to check them out, it's all for free which only makes it better.

Let me sleep!

Ugh, tests after tests. I'm surprised to still be alive. Tomorrow there's another test, the last one in English at least. Lucky me. No, actually - I'm not that lucky. I've still got the national test in math left to do and that's the one I worry most about. Glad I can't get lower grades because of it at least. I can only get better, not worse. That's kind of relieving. But still I can't help but worry too much.

Well well. Time's almost eleven o'clock in the evening (of course) and I should at least try to get some sleep. My sleeping problems still remain and it's making me crazy. Why can't I get one night of normal and continuous sleep?! God damn it. I wish I had some pills.

Just joking.

Damn computer

Sorry for not posting, I'm just not up for it right now. There's a lot on my mind nowadays so... that takes up a lot of my spare time. Sorry.
Well, I'm in school, hitting my computer and cursing at it. It keeps shutting off all the time so I'm not happy at the moment. I want to finish my work and go home. Tomorrow and Wednesday are full with national tests so I'm not allowed to be at home then, but if I finish today I might get Thursday and Friday off at least. So I have to work. If this computer allows me to, I don't have another computer to use.

I knew I should've brought my own to school...